I Will Wait

Can I just say it…? This song is great and so is the band!

More than just the music and feel of the song, I think the lyrics are right on. The theme of “I will wait” can be a powerful one. Take a listen and think about it for yourself…what does it mean to you?

Now I’ll be bold
As well as strong
And use my head alongside my heart
So tame my flesh
And fix my eyes
A tethered mind freed from the lies

Forgiveness

One of the hardest things you will ever have to do in your entire life is exercise forgiveness towards someone…yet it can also be one of the most important things you can ever do.

I will be honest, sometimes it is very difficult to say those three words: I forgive you. There have been people in my life who I may not want to forgive, for one reason or another. These are people who have hurt me physically or emotionally, have broken my heart or my body, have changed me in ways I could not have previously imagined…

To these people, I feel called to extend forgiveness. As the songs say, this is very difficult and you often feel like the one loosing when you offer someone forgiveness. However, as the physical and emotional wounds heal, I know that the healing will only be complete once I extend true forgiveness.

I have personal stories of forgiveness, and may share them here at some time. But for now, I encourage you to seek out one of two type of people…first, the people that have wronged you, tell them you forgive them…second, the people you have wronged or hurt in some way-ask them for their forgiveness.

Father- grant me the grace to show these people the forgiveness they deserve. You have forgiven me of all my sins and wrong doings, who am I not to extend this to those who have wronged me? Help too, these people…allow them to learn from their mistakes and work in them to help them be who you want them to be.

I know it will not be easy, but I will do my best to live the words of Matthew 6:14-15For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.  But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins. And Matthew 18:21-22 Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother or sister who sins against me? Up to seven times?” Jesus answered, “I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.

The Dream.

So the other night I had this interesting dream. It was one of those that seems super life-like and you feel as though you are actually living it. Typically dreams like this fade in the morning and what happened is not typically remembered. This dream, however, was not exactly like that because I still remember what was said during the dream…

I open my eyes and find myself in a dim-lit room. I am standing next to a table and I notice two people sitting on one side, dressed in suits, and a single person sitting on the other side. I know I recognize this person, but I cannot exactly place who it is…

Suit 1: Well, that settles it, then.

Me: Settles what? (having just come into the situation I am clearly confused)

Suit 2: We know she is guilty and that will be the end of it. There is no need for a trial; we will just put her away for a long time.

Me: Wait! No trial, what is this? And how can you just know she is guilty?

Suit 1: Trust us, we know. Plus, it would be pointless to go to trial as there is no one to defend her.

Me: I will defend her.

Suit 1: You? Why would you defend her?

Me: Because I love her. (this is followed by silence as she looks up at me)

Suit 2: You love her? After everything she did?

Me: Yes. Through everything…through the good times and the bad, while we were together and while we have been apart. No matter what has been done or said. I have never stopped loving her, I have as long as I have known her, and I always will.

Her: Always?

Me: Always and forever.

And that is when I felt myself coming to consciousness and was lying in bed wide awake. I know not what this person did to deserve such treatment, but I know how I felt and that those feelings were true. Even now, days later, I can still feel the various emotions in that room…the despair, the loneliness, the hope, and the love. The image of her looking up when I said I loved her is burned into my mind’s eye, I can clearly see the despair mingled with the first glimpse of hope in her eyes…a look I will not soon forget.

You may ask who this mysterious girl is, and the truth is that I do know who she is. However, I will not say-not yet anyways.

Forgiven

Take a moment and reflect on yourself…

Think about what you are facing,

What you have dealt with,

 And the future still to come…

No matter what it may be:

YOU ARE FORGIVEN!

I feel as though I truly connect with the lyrics of this song. Sometimes my past plays with my head, failure knocks me down, and I just cannot forget the wrong I have done and said. Memories, thoughts and emotions come surging back, and I too struggle with my pain and seem to wrestle with pride.

But when I do not fit in, and I feel like I do not belong anywhere, I am reminded that I, just like you, am a treasure in the arms of Christ and have been forgiven!

Christ has taken the weight of who I have been, I no longer have to carry the burden because I have been set free through His forgiveness and love…and if that is not news worth celebrating, then I do not know what is!

Nick Nacks.

I look around my room and I see memories everywhere. In every corner, on every wall, and  upon each shelf, memories surround me and seem to live with me. Everything in my room has a story, a history. They hold memories of vacations, adventures, mishaps, relationships, places, people, and in some cases things still to come. Whenever I set out to really clean my room, I end up getting distracted by different things in my room and find myself lost in memories. Different things elicit different emotions…happiness, sadness, thankfulness, confusion, frustration, and more. So all this to say, that there are memories everywhere in my room, everywhere I look. Some item have been put away because of the memories they represent, but they are still there. And while remembering the past is important, it is still important to look to the future for you never know what it may hold. Feel free to ask me about the different things I have, as each as a story. Stop by, point to something and ask about it!