12 Years…Where Were You?

Today marks 12 years since the September 11th terrorist attacks.

12 years…

It is astonishing how quickly the time has gone by, but I have never forgotten what it was like that morning. I was in the 7th grade, and I remember it like it was just yesterday. I never thought I would remember a single day so clearly, but I do.

My parents woke me up early and told me to go look at the tv. This was weird for two reasons: both of my parents were in my room and they told me watch tv…I spent the next few hours glued to the tv, watching attack after attack. Those new stories and images are forever burned into my mind’s eye.

I was at home with my family, before going to school and being with my friends…where were you?


Should Have

When we look at our lives, we are often faced with the “should haves.” You know what I mean, the things you wish you had done because it may have just happened to change the course of our lives. But for one reason or another, we did not do them…and they became “should haves.”

When I started thinking about this idea of “should haves,” I tried to think of some examples from my life. Here are a couple things that sometimes I think about, and I wonder: how would my life be different if any of these were on my “done” list, rather than my “should have” list.

  • Should have been been more involved at Cornell, especially since I was blessed to have a Christian roommate
  • Should have gone on roomies freshmen year
  • Should have gone back to Mexico, or gone on another missions trip
  • Should have gotten on the 4:00 Am ferry
  • Should have gone to China to study
  • And in some cases, it’s as simple as: should have said yes/no

But here is the thing…no matter what we have or have not done, we are where we are in life because of it. Every time I start to think about these, or other “should haves” I remember something powerful: God has a plan for me and although I do not know what it may be, I know it will be great. As people, we are naturally flawed, and we often think this gets in the way of God’s plan for us. But, I assure you, God has a plan for each and every one of us.

So although we may think of the “should haves” and wish we could go back, remember that because of them, you are who you are today. And if you are not who you want to be, remember that life is a journey and you are getting closer to who you are meant to be. You cannot change the “should haves” in your life, you can only look forward and take advantage of the times to come.

On a different note, whenever I think of “should haves” I always think of this song. Brings back great memories of the RlazyS Ranch, that’s for sure!


This is a special post to anyone who may be struggling and thinking they are facing a seemingly impossible outcome or future. You may be looking for a job, trying to finished school, dealing with a relationship, or whatever else life may be throwing your way.

I get it, I do. I have been through so many different things in my life…things that I thought I would never get through…truly difficult situations that I thought were impossible. This song has always served as an inspiration for me in tough times, the times that seem impossible. So think about what you are facing that seems impossible…and once you have it in your mind, hit play.

Unsinkable ships, sink

Unbreakable walls, break

Sometimes the things you think would never happen

Happen just like that

Unbendable steel, bends

If the furry of the wind is unstoppable

I’ve learned to never underestimate 

The impossible

Also, a piece of biblical encouragement from Isaiah 40….He gives strength to the weary and increases the power if the week. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

Who I want to be…

As a guy, sometimes it can be hard to ask for help and to show a true desire for self change and improvement. It seems as though our male egos get in the way and we think that we can do it by ourselves. The truth of the matter is that we cannot do it on our own. We may try for a while, but it just will not work out…more often than not, we will fail.

But do not be discouraged. There is a place we can all go to get the help, guidence and forgiveness we need but may not deserve: on our knees. God is there, ready and willing to make us into who we ought to be-we just need to ask for that second chance. He is listening…just ask.

The man I want to be:

  • A good man
  • A do like I should man
  • The kind of man the mirror likes to see
  • A strong man
  • An admit I was wrong man
  • A stay man
  • A brave man
  • A giving man
  • The kind of man she sees in her dreams
  • God’s man

God, continue to create me and shape me into the man you want me to be. I sure could use your help in my life, mold me into your man first and her man second. Thank you for second chances and new starts. Thank you for meeting us when we are on our knees, guide us and use us. 

Love Don’t.

Love Don’t Run; Love Don’t Hide

It Won’t Turn Away Or Back Down From A Fight

Be Right Here, Don’t Go Anywhere

Love’s Too Tough It Wont Give Up 

You Gotta Lay It On The Line, Don’t Matter If It Takes All Night

It’s Gonna Make You Stronger, Its Gonna Make Forever Longer

It’d Be Easier Walking Away, But Hold To What Is Real 

Love Don’t Run

Slight adaptation of a new-ish country song. I changed the wording/focus slightly to take it a little bit away from a strictly romantic-style love it be more all-encompassing for all the different types of love that exist between people. No matter the situation or circumstance you are facing, do not give up on or under-appreciate the power of love. As cheesy as it may sound, love can truly change the course of our lives and world, it is truly a force to be reckoned with, don’t underestimate it. The Bible also tells us the importance of love… I Corinthians 13:13, “Three things will last forever: faith, hope and love-and the greatest of these is love.”

The moment we give up one love, is the moment we loose our humanity.